Goals include:

Weight Loss
HW: ~160
CW: 149.6
GW1: 135
GW2: 125

Checkpoints
[X]155 | REACHED : July 8th
[X]150 | REACHED August 15st
[ ]145 | September 15st
[ ]140 | October 15st
[ ]135 | November 15st
[ ]130 | December 15st
[ ]125 | December 15st

Depression is gnawing into me so I'm finding it harder to lose the weight as I have been the past few weeks. I'm just trying to even get back down to 152.2 to start losing again. This morning I was 152.8 I believe and thats way too far away from where I need to be. It is almost august and I'm still too high up in the 50s!

Still I must take a moment to be proud of myself. Roughly since I began my ways of troubles I was closing in on 167 and so the fact that I am ~153 is really a nice nice improvement. I just want to see 143, and then 133... gosh I'm impatient. Oh well.

I am essentially trying to work on self-improvement, both for the physical and mind.

Currently my priority is weight loss since much of my emtional stress is relative. I want to lose weight at a slow but efficient pace. While I am not over-weight, I was for a period reaching a very close point to being. Instead I feel that I do not want to starve myself, which I feel leads to only negatives, but instead have the lowest BMI without being underweight.

My current BMI as of today stands as: 22.8, which I will round up to 23. Because the heighest BMI in normal is 24.9, and lowest is 18.5, I want to be just a tad above at the very least. I will be going off to school again and I want to assure I don't gain the weight that I did the previous academic year. This of course means that I would have to lose 25 lbs! Which is unfortunately a long way to go.

My speed is partially determined by Weight Watchers which I'm currently on. So I am trying to folow the point plan instead of trying to 'diet'. I am hoping that this will assure a slow progression into healthier eating in general. As of right now my eating habits are still atrocious, however I have switched from simple carbs to complex ones as to hopefully improve that end. I am trying to derail myself from my constant desire for sugar and chocolate, but it is still my biggest hurdle.

During the summer I have been lazy in regard to exercise, but I have been doing almost daily sit-ups, squats, leg-extentions, etc to at least keep my physical condition in rather good shape. During the fall semester I hope to sign up for some exercise classes to program myself to regularly exercise. I have a decent walk to class so I will also get that exercise unintentionally.

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My second  goal is to stop nail-biting which is probably a larger hurdle to overcome. I usually go through spurts of being okay, but then I resort back to nail-biting. I'm hoping I can also progress to correct this. I will be completely honest with how many days I go without biting them. I feel my final goal will be going a full 30 days without biting that will help rid myself of said problem. I hope to possibly get rid of this by the time school starts.

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My third and final problem is acne. While it is mostly tempered it is still a bit of a problem. Especially around my cycle it flares up and I'm hoping to control it through constant products and so forth. I will probably work with what I have now, but during the academic year I might splurge on acne clensers and other products.


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